haven't had time to blog since i came back from GC and after my last paper!! haha... GC was really a crazy experience! but really fruitful and enjoyable =)
had three long days with severe lack of sleep... however, that really allow me to experience God's providence in abundance!! haha amazingly =)
initially was pretty uncertain about the trip... firstly had some problem deciding about the way to get to the airport as the flight was quite early and certain bus service we intended to take had not yet started... however things went on okay after some checking out and confirming… however, along the way, was still really uncertain whether it’s God’s will that I go for this GC, after all GC didn’t completely fit into my exam schedule and leaders didn’t encourage my decision initially.. its only after assurance that I have time to study that they allowed me to go… so I was thinking I might have forced my way here and might need to suffer certain consequences… but there was just a sense of assurance that still, this is what God had allowed and definitely I will benefit from this GC =)
During the trip, I studied for the first two nights, didn’t study on the last night cos we did sharing and reflections till 3am and I had to wake up at 4.30am to catch my flight.. totally crazy… and due to some complications, I ended up sleeping by curling up at the side of the bed on the first night =( but I really thank God for sustaining me through the programmes of the GC.. though I was nodding off, I captured most of the teachings and experience presence of God vividly during praise and worship =)
Another amazing experience that I really wanna give glory to God is His help during my revision… I amazingly managed to understand my module in short time spent and I really could concentrate in my studies better… I guess this was what I really needed… it’s really hard not to be stressed knowing that you have badly little time left to study and you are studying so late in the night, knowing that the next day will be filled with programmes and activities… I guess God gave me peace as well, I wasn’t panicky while I studied. Indeed God is faithful =)
Set a few objectives before the camp so as to come to God with expectation…
1. Gain strengthening to face challenges
2. Growing armour-bearer spirit
3. Making sense of experiences
Glad that God spoke to me regarding all the objectives =) Regarding challenges, I was rather put to shame cos I was exposed to people facing much greater challenges than me and they remained so faithful. I think to be strengthened is to look for resources to overcome these challenges… God gives to each challenges as well as the resources to deal with God cos God is out to prosper us and never to harm us =) had a new understanding about armour-bearing spirit that it is very important and I need to follow closely behind the leader in order to fulfil my job.. really want to improve on this =) I think some weakness I have in doing this is the way I communicate feedback and the knowledge of my leader… Lastly, making sense of my experiences, what I think I can grow in is the impartation of spirit to those around me.. the experiences that I have, I need to impart to the people around me, just like how I always gain impartation of spirit by others… this way the people help me to preserve this spirit if anytime I lost it or forgot it…
My greatest impression of this GC is that it really surrounds the building up of leadership, disciple-making and to be upward and outward looking =) many applications that were shared are how to build up people, how to grow people =) it called for me to impart whatever I have to be devoted for God’s work and gave me a push and a direction of how to overcome self-love and self-centredness =)
Really think that this GC was full of great and wonderful experiences.. on the flight back, I had to take the plane alone so it was a first time… didn’t think it was a pleasing experience but I guess it’s a step of independence =) which I quite secretly badly don’t want to grow in!! haha but i have no choice!! Btw parents went back to terrenganu already =( just two days after I return and a day after I end exam… pretty sad that I didn’t really have time to spend with them =( but I guess the thing that will really please them is that I will be able to take care of myself =) so I need to work hard to do that!! Came up with a household chores plan which splits up the work we have at home with my brother =) I think this time things should be much better! =)
Just want to end off by praying that I will be faithful with whatever God has spoken to me during this GC.. I really need to carry through, may things learnt, many things I have in mind to do, I may not have the strength, the resources to do them yet but I want to try and I want to put them on hold and wait for the opportunity =) Pray for a heart that is always soft and sensitive to the Holy Spirit as well =)
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