feeling drained..

this week was really a tired for me... i felt tired physically, mentally and emotionally...
physical there's nothing for me to say... late nights plus my anemia condition... then my mind has been always full of things to think about, to plan... then worries and fears will just keep popping out.. its rather irritating and i feel that i have been feeling irritated really easily this week... haiz.. that why caused me to feel tired emotionally as well. and i find myself becoming very sad whenever there is no one i know around me... i can feel immediately that my face turn black, but i really find no reason to smile or look happy... 怎么办呢？haiz..actually long wanted to have a break already, to take time to have peace and quiet, to ot be distracted by any of my worries and concerns... but it just turned out that something else just seem more important.. i guess that's why i ended up in such a jialat state now...
but alright la, not feeling pathetic about myself, but there is still fear of not being able to manage in the coming week and i sense my complain spirit building up!!! want to complain to God why make me go through this... then i will aiya, i know la you want me to conquer them and grow stronger... had been sharing that to people, i guess now is the time i get tested in this area and really live this out for others to see.. which is according to the season i identified myself to be in =) haha so... 是我自找的..haha reminded of what meixuan say during one of our follow up, haha she say 没有辛苦过哪里会得到.. haha so funny... but its true that we need to go through to conquer haha... i shall accept it with joy right?

feel so much better now.. anyway, calyn shared before its good to have an anchor verse to hold on to to make sure i struggle and go through things with God and fight against the schemes of the devil..
For this, i shall anchor on

Romans 8:28-30
²⁸And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,^j]"> who^k]"> have been called according to his purpose. ²⁹For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. ³⁰And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.