hihi, just want to share over here about a little breakthrough that i went through this tuesday during the soft condensed matter physics class. It's the first lecture for this module and there were only 4 students taking the class. The horrifying thing came when the lecturer said that since the class is small, let's really try to get to know each other and got us to introduce us one by one. haha but the lecturer's a nice guy though =) yups, and so the first person went, he asked him to say his name, related modules he had taken, year and what's his future plan. I was like OH NO... the lecturer is gonna make me say to the whole class that I want to go into counselling/social work after taking physics course??!! Though all the while I have been (partially) openly making plans about pursuing a career in my interest, there was still this part of me insecure about letting my professors know about such plans that i have. I have never been able to share to my professors about my future plans. So immediately my mind actually started to think of excuses and what to say to smoke through his question. And being in the ultra mini class, my turn soon came. I introduced my name, my year and waited for him to prompt the rest one by one. And when he actually reached the question what's my plan for the future, i just said i'm not intending to further study, hoping that he'll just move on! haha but he didn't, he continued to ask what i want to do, and still avoiding to answer, i said work, and he continued, what field/area? I was like OH MY GOSH, THIS IS IT... and i finally said that i'm interested in counselling.. and the whole class was commenting that it sounds like psychology field and there was this guy sitting behind me, whispering into my ear: "you're in the wrong course, it's still not too late to change.." felt very uneasy at that point of time, but at the same time i felt my trust in God in this area actually grew. I realise that it is important that I am not ashamed of this truth about myself. I am proud of where God has placed me and I am also proud of the talents and passions that God has given to me. Though they don't seem to link and connect nicely and is a very uncommon pair, I believe God as the God of miracles and God of the impossibles. I embrace this is who I am because I believe this how He created me to be.
Also, during one day in my qt, i read this verse 2 Cor. 3:12 "Therefore, since we have such a hope, we are very bold." I was immediately captured by this verse because of the rhyme in hope and bold, and reading it once more, I realise how powerful this verse is. Because we have a hope, because we believe that something is going to happen, we have courage, we face up to the things/ challenges we have and we are not afraid nor in fear. I really think this is very cool! haha and in a sense my breakthrough is an experience of this verse, that i have hope in God for my future and that gave me courage to proclaim what i see and understand of my future to everyone. =)
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