Saturday, April 03, 2010

oh man, my blog's suffering a serious drought. haha. hmm.. have not been dealing very well with things for the past few weeks (should it be several weeks instead?! haha) not able to cope with studies, other responsibilities and guarding my own thought life. Think i have been hanging on till right now plainly out of perseverance. Which i hope would be only be the temporal case.
There are quite a number of questions that involve the things which are really important in my life that i really hope i can have a clear answer to. Honestly, i find it quite draining. I have to constantly watch my own life, be aware of sins, be aware of season and respond positively. I find it so hard to be so alert. **i really have the hobby of stoning** It just feels really tiring and i just wanna slack away. BUT i know for sure that's not what God wants me to be doing. He called me for much greater purpose.

1 Peter 2:9
9But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.

Find my mind being in very much of a mess, things unsettled and worries coming in, i really don't know what to deal with first. But i know all these are making me really anxious and disfunctional. Maybe this is what i should be working on first. So how to not be so anxious all the time? I would think of being more secured in Christ.
Matthew 11:28-30
28"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."

Alright 2 verses to hold on to. If you're reading this please pray for me, cos I have slight anemia and suspecting (waiting for blood test result) thyroid. They have symptoms of being easily tired, intolerant to cold, and being negative emotionally or can even lead to depression. Was quite shock to know the one about depression. But i do find i can be very vulnerable to it so really need to be careful.

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