Making sense

hmm..my part for ESS can be considered to have ended =) I really am glad that i could contribute this much, though it may not be the most important part but i am truly convinced that i gave the best that i could, even though the last day started to complain but after that i realised more so it really was an experience that i do not want to forget =)

Am really glad to have acquired several skills during this period of serving... photoshop skills, skills in production and filming, teamwork, knowing what it means to give my best...

Moreover, besides ESS publicity there were other things going on that allowed me to learn and grow... follow up on meixuan, usher team leader, taking care of yihan... this holiday has been ultra fruitful, still making sense of them all but i really am experiencing things happpening in my life because of God =) and i really still want to grow more...
Had caregroup ytd and sengkim posted the question: "How do we want to shine for God? In what areas and how?", it was kind of a follow through from the sermon last saturday... my first reaction was to think what does it mean to shine? to me it is to exhibit Godly characteristics through decision making...(why decision making? cos i believe that our lives are made up by the decisions we make (sermon by Ps. Andy Stanley, shown deuring service two saturdays ago)) so how can i exhibit this characteristics? and to who? I think first of all, i need to be someone that people will listen to and is interested in my life to be able to catch their interest in the way i make my decisions... so there must firstly be a relationship... then next will be am i sharing with others how my decisions where being made, to friends yes, to family yes, so where is this area within my influence that i do not showcase? very obviously it is to people in my course... i do not approach the people, do not pro-actively make friends, in fact i try to avoid people, avoid attention. i just want to go for lecture just to get the knowledge of what i need to know and understand so that i can do well in my exams and that's all...

Evaluated why...
my burden for these people does not really exist, i fear their judgement and i fear being compared in terms of results. Glad that God gave me understanding about doing good to all men and that perfect love drives out all fear..

"To slander no one, to be peaceable and considerate, and to show true humility toward all men."
Titus 3:2

"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."
1 John 4:18

need to meditate on these verses and put them into practise to be able to shine for God in this area =)