As what was said, I need to update this blog on several things… my results, reflections for the year and my new year resolutions =)
Examination resultsWell, even though it kinda late to update about this, still really want to thank God and honour Him to the best of I know how to for what He has done. Hmm… I didn’t do very well for my exams in fact, I failed a module, got a D and a C, the rest of the modules I got an A-, a B+ and a B.
I failed my compulsory math module which I S/U-ed. Thank God I S/U-ed it!! Haha so now it doesn’t affect my GPA =) I got D and C for two of my core modules which are 4 AUs each… OUCH! Haha
Didn’t expect to do so badly, cos for the previous semesters C+ was my worse grade. So it was quite a great drop. Honestly, judging from the effort I put in to study for the past few semesters, the grades I get this time shouldn’t be what I deserved. I felt greater effort being put in to study and study hard than the past semester, but the results really did not reflect this at all.
However, God really spoke to me through my experience in receiving my results, I really cannot deny that He really really made me prepared to receive results that are disappointing. Initially I did not intend to ‘camp’ in front of the computer for my results to be out. However, when I wanted to off my com, I saw that I it was 2346, just another 14mins (and someone reminded me that results going to be out tonight!otherwise I wouldn’t have remembered) so I decided to wait awhile for it to be released. I started to get really nervous and scared during the wait, so I made myself think about the worse of the worse scenario, which is to fail and fail 3 modules, started to rehearse the situation of failing 3 modules and felt that it wasn’t that bad after all, I can just repeat them… so I got more settled but still sense that there was fear, so I decided to worship God and to pray to Him and really receive peace, which I did =) and there, I was prepared to receive the results. So the experience was really one that was very stable, I wasn’t overwhelmed by my emotions simply because God prepared me for the worse. And through this experience, God really convince me one thing, which is that He will never never make me go through a situation that He has not made me prepared for. Whatever challenge He puts in front of me, He has prepared me for it =)
After realizing this, I just find God very amazing and simply good all the time. Because He really doesn’t bless me for no reason. The last semester, He blessed me with good results , even though my knowledge of the modules weren’t good, this time round He didn’t do that again, because He wants to speak to me something different, He wishes to bless me in a different manner =)
Reflections for 2009Haha, had CG meet 2 days ago and SK had us draw a picture of how 2009 had been for us… I drew the container for new year goodies that allows you to put like 6 different candies in one container. I thought of using something related to food to describe because I think it has been a year that was very full, in the sense that there were a lot things that I went through and all these things had greater and deeper meanings, they were really more than superficial things =) which really is a breakthrough, I used to be someone who really go through things without much thoughts and I don’t learn from my experiences and this makes me repeat my mistakes!!haha but 2009 was a year that I go through things and I come to know certain things that I never knew, especially things about myself, the deeper issues…
I would say that the beginning part of the year was a time that I started and prepared to will myself to make sacrifices to avail myself to serve God. Having a semester that was super cramped, super busy and super stressful, I was challenged to do things for Him.. But God really delivered me, in terms of my studies =)
Then the year went on with many many first-times with God. This was a period where I really discovered more about myself and make use of these things to make a difference. And all the way till the end of the year, I have been trying means and methods to make this difference one that is even greater. And this I would like to carry to the new year =) That I may continuously receive from God and have something to give to those around me =)
Resolutions Two areas I’m really concerned about for this new year is my health and time. Because these are the two things that really hinders me to do more for God at this moment. So for now really want to set resolutions to overcome them =) yup, to do things taking into consideration my health and to spend time thinking about the rights things and doing things that are outward-looking =)
