God, I'm rather traumatised...

This week had been feeling rather dry and tired...it's actually not a xiong week for me... only had a lab report, one homework, normal workload for me... but really feel quite sian, everytime i want to study, i ended up just starring at the notes and can't focus in lectures as well, either keep dozing off or start stoning...yea then cos i keep feeling tired, i slept earlier too... usually i sleep at 2plus but these few days only went to bed between 12 to 2am... so i don't understand why also and i have been having quite bad headaches in the morning during the week... dunno why..

yea anyway, want to move on the talk about the things that traumatised me... ytd went home late cos of shepherding... yup then was taking 180 home with chee harn...yup then there was this road junction which i saw two ambulance and a police car... then, being curious, i looked out further and saw something on the ground which, at first i couldn't recognise was a crushed motorcycle... i think it's only about half the original size already... and there was alot of blood on the ground around it... and the blood looked as if it was splattered out..scary... and the civil defence people covered something which i think is the body of the motorcyclist... i was rather scared and didn't want to admit that the motorcyclist died during the crash... so i didn't tell chee harn about what i saw, i just told him a there is a car accident and omitted the part about the body... i think death to me is really something scary, that's why i really don't want to admit that they had pronounced the motorcyclist dead, even though it is quite obvious, how else will they cover up the whole body?
yup, and that wasn't enough, today i dropped off the bus when it reached my bus stop and just after taking a few steps, i saw the police tape used to close the pathway to go to the lake just opposite my house... then i saw a big crowd and several civil defence vehicles and police car... oh no! something bad happened again?! yup, i half wanted to go and take a look at what happened but also very afraid that i would see death again, so in the end i quickly rushed home, so that i could ask my parents whether they know what happened... on the way i just thought, even i feel so much about these people, what about their family, those who are close to them, their loved ones? what will they be feeling?
then i just thought that actually i could very easily be one of them... people close to me, my loved ones, my family, my friends, they are not in any way accident-free; disaster-immune... i could have to face such thing anytime, though i really pray i would not... Then i just thought whether God might want to speak to me through this things that i see... i think this might be a reminder to share the Gospel with urgency, especially to my loved ones...i really want to do my 100% to make sure they know about God and how important God is in their lives before i lose the chance to do so...
Anyway, after that reached home and asked my parents, they told me the news reported that they had expected that 2 boys were washed off by the strong current in the drain due to the rainwater from the heavy downpour in the afternoon..

Feeling sad and emo now... God please restore me... give me strength to move on, i know that dwelling in such sorrow will not bring about anything good, so God help me to move on, i want to make a difference....

Physics Craze!!

Yup, this is it, madness in physics!! Well, what do you expect? i'm a physics student!! haha but don't worry, i'm not gone insane haha!! just that have been 'overloaded' with physics stuff lately.. yup, not necessarily a bad thing though, (even though i would still prefer not to be expected to understand so much stuff in physics) cos in the study of physics, i could see the fingerprints of God all around... To someone who has been given an intro to the subject, he'll probably think that science is wonderful and can explain all things. but now that i'm given more and more, it actually revealed to me that NO, science cannot explain why things happen... professors have been saying all things in science are postulates (that have been proven consistent empirically).. postulates meaning guesses... there is no prove why do we use this equation or why this constant...
take an example, the law of censervation of energy, which states that energy neither be created nor destroyed. Why? Why can't it? There is no explanation to it. The scientist just came out with this law because this is what we observe all the time. Yup, so science can't explain anything. It does not tell us how things work, it is just a study of how things work.
So, science can't explain anything, then what can? not too sure about the rest of you, but to me, i think the world is such a wonderful place and the way things work is so beautiful that there must be someone or something governing it. So this reveals that not only does the world has a creator, but this creator remains to govern the world. Convinced that this is God?

Really thank God for revealing these things to me. This could very well be why God has placed me in physics. It grew me so much in my faith and my understanding. I used to think science disproves God but i have no idea why. Now i know science does not disprove God and i can even share with those who like me, used to think science explains everything. God has been strengthening me in my mind!!

Definiton of Pride

Few days back, was spending time with two sisters and we were talking about pride.. At a point of time a sister said... pride is to think about myself more than I think about God.. love this definition =)

It caught me thinking how many times i have been thinking so much about myself... my mind is always so full of I, I, I and Is.... how about changing them all to God? that will involve a lot of change, but God is calling me to do that!!