hmm..my part for ESS can be considered to have ended =) I really am glad that i could contribute this much, though it may not be the most important part but i am truly convinced that i gave the best that i could, even though the last day started to complain but after that i realised more so it really was an experience that i do not want to forget =)
Am really glad to have acquired several skills during this period of serving... photoshop skills, skills in production and filming, teamwork, knowing what it means to give my best...
Moreover, besides ESS publicity there were other things going on that allowed me to learn and grow... follow up on meixuan, usher team leader, taking care of yihan... this holiday has been ultra fruitful, still making sense of them all but i really am experiencing things happpening in my life because of God =) and i really still want to grow more...
Had caregroup ytd and sengkim posted the question: "How do we want to shine for God? In what areas and how?", it was kind of a follow through from the sermon last saturday... my first reaction was to think what does it mean to shine? to me it is to exhibit Godly characteristics through decision making...(why decision making? cos i believe that our lives are made up by the decisions we make (sermon by Ps. Andy Stanley, shown deuring service two saturdays ago)) so how can i exhibit this characteristics? and to who? I think first of all, i need to be someone that people will listen to and is interested in my life to be able to catch their interest in the way i make my decisions... so there must firstly be a relationship... then next will be am i sharing with others how my decisions where being made, to friends yes, to family yes, so where is this area within my influence that i do not showcase? very obviously it is to people in my course... i do not approach the people, do not pro-actively make friends, in fact i try to avoid people, avoid attention. i just want to go for lecture just to get the knowledge of what i need to know and understand so that i can do well in my exams and that's all...
Evaluated why...
my burden for these people does not really exist, i fear their judgement and i fear being compared in terms of results. Glad that God gave me understanding about doing good to all men and that perfect love drives out all fear..
"To slander no one, to be peaceable and considerate, and to show true humility toward all men."
Titus 3:2
"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love."
1 John 4:18
need to meditate on these verses and put them into practise to be able to shine for God in this area =)
Friday, July 31, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
Serving hard
Now is a period of xiongness..haha..many things to be done and new things to try out...hmm so why am i blogging? haha to make sense to keep track that i'm on track and not falling away.. cos the worse thing i want to happen is i serve God in works so much i forgot my motivation which is Him..
yup, very important verse that i want to hold on to and never ever let go!
well, mainly busy because of ESS publicity.. cos the deadline is horribly near!! coming saturday will be our first publicity, that's like 5 days away only!!
yea, the things to be tied down now are the invite cards, the publicity clips..
but really am very thankful for this team..everyone is so hyped up to serve, i don't feel a tinge of reluctance to sacrifice time for the benefit of the ESS production...that i feel really amazed by how God prepared their hearts to serve.. though not the first time serving in a publicity team (previously served in communcations for UNI-YA Camp), i looked at this opportunity to serve as something new, a chance for me to learn and discover more about myself, and i want to see God working in me through this!
Definitely there do are things i learn and grow in already..i learn to maintain the good attitude, i learn to accept and submit to what the leaders ask for or criticise about. I learn to handle rejected ideas... wow! that's really alot! yea, thank God He made me grow :D
Learned to handle stress as well and saw my weaknesses in handling emotions, not prioritising my schedule, passiveness in many things... remembered God revealed to me that this will be season of exploration and self-discovery..so its half come to pass already i think, and the most important thing for me to do now is to make sure that i really make sense...and i keep the experience with me and not leave them behind..
Want to really remind myself to always go back to God's love which compels me to do whatever i'm doing =)
1 Corinthians 9:24-27
24Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.25Everyone who competes in the games goes into strict training. They do it to get a crown that will not last; but we do it to get a crown that will last forever. 26Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. 27No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize.
yup, very important verse that i want to hold on to and never ever let go!
well, mainly busy because of ESS publicity.. cos the deadline is horribly near!! coming saturday will be our first publicity, that's like 5 days away only!!
yea, the things to be tied down now are the invite cards, the publicity clips..
but really am very thankful for this team..everyone is so hyped up to serve, i don't feel a tinge of reluctance to sacrifice time for the benefit of the ESS production...that i feel really amazed by how God prepared their hearts to serve.. though not the first time serving in a publicity team (previously served in communcations for UNI-YA Camp), i looked at this opportunity to serve as something new, a chance for me to learn and discover more about myself, and i want to see God working in me through this!
Definitely there do are things i learn and grow in already..i learn to maintain the good attitude, i learn to accept and submit to what the leaders ask for or criticise about. I learn to handle rejected ideas... wow! that's really alot! yea, thank God He made me grow :D
Learned to handle stress as well and saw my weaknesses in handling emotions, not prioritising my schedule, passiveness in many things... remembered God revealed to me that this will be season of exploration and self-discovery..so its half come to pass already i think, and the most important thing for me to do now is to make sure that i really make sense...and i keep the experience with me and not leave them behind..
Want to really remind myself to always go back to God's love which compels me to do whatever i'm doing =)
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
Refreshness from God
Recently really embarking on a journey of self-discovery together with God. Although it didn't happen as i expected.. I wanted people to write something for me to reflect upon. and it just happen that all of them took extra long time, i hadn't receive anything yet though i asked for them since the previous entry.
However, i could feel that i am being more sensitive to my actions, behaviour and response to things happening around me and gain some self-discovery.
Here's some more significant ones..
1. Prefers to go personal
Shares really limited stuff at group setting but can be very open in one-to-one talks
2. I face struggles in accountability
only want to share out of the overflow of the heart. otherwise i with-hold things, refuse to report to leaders. (need to grow cos i still cannot grow by myself to want to do this)
3. Lack of a specific emphasis in speech and leaves the audience puzzled on what is the point i want to bring across.
yup, i really think there are still things for me to discover. but currently feel kind of drained. need to seek God. seek God to refresh me. refresh my desire to become more equipped in personality and skill. refresh me to do His work. i need a touch by God. A touch that will encourage and comfort me..
However, i could feel that i am being more sensitive to my actions, behaviour and response to things happening around me and gain some self-discovery.
Here's some more significant ones..
1. Prefers to go personal
Shares really limited stuff at group setting but can be very open in one-to-one talks
2. I face struggles in accountability
only want to share out of the overflow of the heart. otherwise i with-hold things, refuse to report to leaders. (need to grow cos i still cannot grow by myself to want to do this)
3. Lack of a specific emphasis in speech and leaves the audience puzzled on what is the point i want to bring across.
yup, i really think there are still things for me to discover. but currently feel kind of drained. need to seek God. seek God to refresh me. refresh my desire to become more equipped in personality and skill. refresh me to do His work. i need a touch by God. A touch that will encourage and comfort me..
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