yup, gotta testimony to share! woohoo its really exciting and amazing walk with God! here goes...
Have not been feeling well lately, had fever 3weeks ago on 30jan then took quite some time to recover then after that last week had headache everyday however was not exactly consistent headache comes and goes sometimes but most of the time i'm having headache, yup. then last sat during service was really feeling weak during worship i could feel myself can faint anytime but i didn't then after that go back to seat my limbs were numb i couldn't even hold my pen to write sermon notes. told my cg members after service and they prayed for me. felt slightly better after praying. then luckily after dinner xuan an (a brother from eng how's cg) drove me home.
then after that monday was having guitar lesson, halfway through i wanted to go toilet and was walking halfway i could not feel my legs at all and hurried to grab the railing nearby after that corinna and jingying and huimin came to help me. but that could be bcos of the super cold room we were in. after that felt super tired so just put my head down and rest. then my head start to feel really ache and my head felt heavy and could not lift my head. might have gotten a fever then. then sihui cabbed me home.
then tuesday was okay, but i skipped a tutorial in the morning. then wed is the worse i went to school feeling okay but had to walk long distance from HQ to south spine and back.i felt great discomfort while walking so went to rest at HQ and brothers and sisters told me to go see a doctor so after that kor brought me to medical centre. the doc was quite irresponsible just ask and did not diagnose and said i had persistent headache cos body fatigue and just gave me headache pills. but i really wasn't feeling that good so yanyu volunteered to send me home and off we went.
after i got home i realize i have fever but mummy was away for tuition no one to bring me to see doc and i had mid term the next day morning 8.30am. but there was nothing i could do i took fever medicine and rested. the next day i still had fever so skipped my mid term and told mummy to brint me to the doctor. then i still had fever on friday so skipped school again.
Saturday felt better but not fully recovered so went for service.
However the bus i took was very cold and it was a long journey i started to feel unwell again.then after that service, btw ytd was combined service at suntec convention hall was first combined service of the year and it's to prepare us and give a direction for the year. yup so we were sitting at the top and was quite unstable.furthermore praise and worship people jump, all i felt was giddiness. after that michelle offered to bring me down to 'stable land'. down there was better but still not feeling too good. after praise and worship when we wanted to head back to our seats, when i just started walking i could see things moving so quickly grab michelle's hand. throughout sermon was not feeling well and did not focus alot, until the end when pastor jeff shared about why he joined hope... then i began to have more focus. then during the end worship i sang and God just impress upon my heart just told me these words: kneel down and repent. it was a soft and gentle voice, not angry not urgent, just how God always is. at first i did hesitated but i realise how real God had always been and how faithful He is whenever i obeyed, so i knelt down. i repented, Lord search me and tell all that is within me that is not right; i do not want to trust in my own plans; i want to trust in You Lord; help me Lord to look to You and not my troubles; remind me when i'm overwhelmed that You are mighty and You will save. then i suddenly remembered how come now i'm able to focus so well on God? cos previously sihui was sharing with me about her experienc with God during her cl training and she asked me how my week was and all i could tell her is i'm so sick i can't even focus on God. then that is when i realise i'm healed by God. i am fully healed by God, i do not feel any discomfort at all, i do not feel weak i do not feel any headache i do not feel giddy or nauseous. Thank you God !
i really think God wants me to use this testimony to remind others and bless others that having the heart of repentance as well as trust in Him allows us to claim His promises, all His promises =D
